21 years old, never kissed a girl. Which means super-virgin, shit sucks. I'm really un-confident about myself because I have a minor weight-problem and because I'm so unexperienced.
Unemployed for 1 and a half year because I'm too lazy to get a job.
I overthink things way too much. Example: I go to drink with some chick, I overthink it and make up scenarios and then get nervous over those scenarios.
I believe I self consciously use movies, tv-shows, vlogs and videogames to try to ignore those things above.
But don't get it twisted, I love movies, tv-shows, vlogs and videogames. I just "use" them way too much.
I push mongo...
The fact that you recognize that you "use" things to distract you from the things you don't like to face - that is something that some people NEVER learn about themselves.
I'm not going to get all "inspirational advice over the internets" on you... but just don't be afraid to fail. At whatever you're about to do - ask a girl out, drink w/ her, kiss her, etc. A lot of people deal with anxiety like you, and it doesn't have to be something that controls your life. The more you try to overcome those fears of failure/rejection/etc and succeed, the easier it gets.
This is coming from a guy who used to be really really anxious in my teen years. I am still an anxious person, but I have learned to deal with a lot of it. I still avoid life with weed and video games though. So I don't have all the answers. Just don't let the feelings of "ooh... I'm an anxious, nervous, overthinker... how am I ever gonna (insert cool thing here)" keep you down. Fight through that shit.
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--> "I wont give up my real friends just to play that game alone at home with headphones on, isolated from social contacts. Why did u (EA) had to ruin a game that hard? Did someone just poop in your cereals? Are we to blame for this action? "
i have a fucking serious case of eczema.
my right hand palm has been a fucking bloody dry crackling mess for years..
had it on my arms for a while..gone now..
had it on my feet for a while..gone now..
in 2002 i found out that its too serious of a case to ever really be fixed.
doc has given me some of the strongest shit out and by the third or fourth day it does nothing.
i can put on lotion without rubbing it in and it will all be gone in multiple hours.
my hands look like a 90 year old mans.
it sucks.
ive wasted well over 20 thou just to find out its something i should learn to live with.
anxiety..
when i was little buses and malls were the shit.
over time ive come accustom to accounting for who i know and dont where ever i am.
if im out numbered i get nervous and irrational.
ive avoided many parties because of this...
i do not go to malls and i refuse to ride the bus even when its free...
yesterday for meat week we had a good number of folks come out.
i knew 5..there were like 30 of us...
i smoked a cig while my food was getting made.
sat alone and ate without saying a word.
left to smoke a cig after without saying anything..
not even to my own brother and other friends ive known for multiple years.
i have two lazy eyes.
which has caused vision issues.
neither is a serious problem but without glasses i have no control over where my eyes are pointed.
shit i live with...
shit i love...
shit that makes me, me...
SUPPORT YOUR HOMIES...
i have very serious depression which make certain aspects of my life very awkward. i cant stay in a relationship because of it and have problems dealing with other people because of it. i believe its the worst thing in my life, and i cant get help for it because i feel i dont deserve to be sad about life, in comparison to the horrible things in the world.
i have major trust issues with women because of how i was treated by girls growing up and i have a hard time telling whether a woman likes me because of it.
my father is a drug addict and the last time i saw him was for 10 mins last year on thanksgiving. before then i hadnt seen him in 7 years.
i have panic attacks.
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