i have a fucking serious case of eczema.
my right hand palm has been a fucking bloody dry crackling mess for years..
had it on my arms for a while..gone now..
had it on my feet for a while..gone now..
in 2002 i found out that its too serious of a case to ever really be fixed.
doc has given me some of the strongest shit out and by the third or fourth day it does nothing.
i can put on lotion without rubbing it in and it will all be gone in multiple hours.
my hands look like a 90 year old mans.
it sucks.
ive wasted well over 20 thou just to find out its something i should learn to live with.
anxiety..
when i was little buses and malls were the shit.
over time ive come accustom to accounting for who i know and dont where ever i am.
if im out numbered i get nervous and irrational.
ive avoided many parties because of this...
i do not go to malls and i refuse to ride the bus even when its free...
yesterday for meat week we had a good number of folks come out.
i knew 5..there were like 30 of us...
i smoked a cig while my food was getting made.
sat alone and ate without saying a word.
left to smoke a cig after without saying anything..
not even to my own brother and other friends ive known for multiple years.
i have two lazy eyes.
which has caused vision issues.
neither is a serious problem but without glasses i have no control over where my eyes are pointed.
shit i live with...
shit i love...
shit that makes me, me...
SUPPORT YOUR HOMIES...
i have very serious depression which make certain aspects of my life very awkward. i cant stay in a relationship because of it and have problems dealing with other people because of it. i believe its the worst thing in my life, and i cant get help for it because i feel i dont deserve to be sad about life, in comparison to the horrible things in the world.
i have major trust issues with women because of how i was treated by girls growing up and i have a hard time telling whether a woman likes me because of it.
my father is a drug addict and the last time i saw him was for 10 mins last year on thanksgiving. before then i hadnt seen him in 7 years.
i have panic attacks.
HEY OM YEAH HOODLUM[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
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I have panic attacks on rare occasions, personally, they had been much more frequent in the past, but it's improving over time.
I have an anxiety problem with social interaction and being under any pressure. I am extremely shy around anyone I don't know, even if all my closest friends are also with me. I often times come off as rude or snobbish because of my unwillingness to talk to others, and thus am slow to grow closer to others in relationships. I'm relatively athletic in nature, and do great in practice and playing with friends, but whenever I play organized sports I do terrible in actual games due to anxiety, and thus end up quitting almost every sport I play.
I also have a terrible lack of motivation in most anything I do. I've dropped more projects than several people have started, and even then I find it hard to care about most things that I do. This worries me for the future, as I honestly hope that I don't lose interest in my studies when I go to college next year, because then I'd be clueless on a career path.
I have a minor depression, however I feel I don't have any right to be sad about my life, similarly to clayfighter, and that makes it worse whenever I think about it.
i'm a.. faggot?
i luv da poosy
but for real i got mad anxiety
peace
Last edited by Permy; 02-02-2012 at 12:24 PM.
I have headaches like 12 hours a day
Sometimes I stand around in my house and act out conversations (quietly)
I hate to make noises so much that when I'm inside any house/building I walk so light that I can't hear my own footsteps. Ppl say that im scary because of that...it sucks. Whenever I get ashy it gets hard for me to breathe. And I can't pull myself to eat or do any housework in a space that someone is close enough to hear cuz I think I'm disturbing them.
Oh...and I can't seem to be able to let one off when I'm fucking...so I have sex for up to 4 hours then quit. Then I just jerk one out and jizz all over the chick while she's sleep
There used to be a time where you could be sure that you weren't talking to hebrew. That time is now lost.