Hi guys! real talk from the heart.....

[Monk]

Hey guys.. real talk here for a second... Last night I had to endure coding a man my age in full arrest and he didn't make it after 2 hours of working on him...and he was in much better shape than I was. At that moment the ER Dr called it.. I had an epiphany....about how we go through our whole lives mostly these days as the bare minimum...only to die broke and heartbroken.. I can't have that anymore. I've coded plenty of ppl in my time on my profession in 3 years, usually older, but it made me realize that I can't keep going through my life fueled on anger and booze. That is exactly what is going to put me in this poor guys position in the long run. So for me its been a long time coming to turn over a new leaf. I'm not asking everyone here for pity or anything else besides support to strengthen me into my future endeavors. I am looking for support; not charity. I hope all of you understand that the jackass in the past was not really "me", and one day I hope to make it up to each and every one of you. You can PM me anytime for anything. Vita E Morte

[emericaridr11]

dude, not drinking booze might have been the best decision of my young life so far, I LOVE not drinking

good digs Monk, heavy thinking

[PoppySquidJr]

Godspeed yo, and good luck.

[Monk]

thank you bros that actually cared to reply to this.. much love.

[TheIronz]

I got the message and reflected upon it.

Only reason I never replied is that I don't know that "old you".

But this new guy sounds dope.